I want to find a way.

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A new post after a month.

My last post was Lights,Books and Action.
As I wrote there..regarding my studies.. I am not studying. I flunked my pre-boards, Again!
this time.. All subjects :)

But, I don't care now.. I am used to this thing.
many random incidents with me.. People say your career is based on this thing beta, they even said this thing when I was in 10th :/

Now. I've promised myself that I will study. Not for hours. But for 2 hours a day.
My Boards are from 22nd of February.
Yes, 1 month;1 day and 22 hours left.
Still, I am on facebook and blogger.

Why ? Because it is my second home. No, Wait, It is the first one. Because the place where I stay is not a castle it is more like deep, dark dungeon.
I hate it. But I love the people.

These days I am not even talking to many people. I am ignoring them badly. My sincere apologies.
I don't even call anyone now.. But yes these days there is a special person with whom I am on call for like 2 hours =)
The only person with whom I talk non-sense[ I never talked sense ]
She is shaping my future. Inspiring me and advising me in some stuff. Which have helped me a lot :)


Something is wrong with me, I listen to 40's HINDI SONGS :|
I am not in love. But I want to fall in love.

Something crappy is on my mind.. Disturbing me.. I have been of use.
I want to give away all my books and rest in a stream.

I've even decided to give away my net for a month and my cell phone too and concentrate on my studies.

Wish me luck. I'll be out of this world. Deactivating my facebook account.
And I need some pills which make me study the whole month.

I badly need your wishes and blessing :)

Please.