Questions he answered.

When I wasn't asleep, I wanted to talk to someone.
'GOD'. The only person i found near me.. I called him down and asked some of the questions and he answered them :)

Myself - Hey.

God - Hello!

Myself - You really exist :D

God - Yes. And I even help you out many times.

Myself - yeah, true. This is the reason she is far away from me and i have so much pain inside me.

God - I can't help you out with this thing, She is not in your destiny.

Myself - Then why the fuck did you made me talk to her or why the hell we met ?

God - She is just another face of mine, You were in trouble and i sent her for you.

Myself - Then, Why did you take her away ?

God - She did her work, so i called her back to me.

Myself - But, Now i am missing her.

God - None of my business.
 
Myself - Okay, Tell me one thing ?

God - yeah ?

Myself - Where do you stay ?

God - I stay inside you!

Myself - Then why do you give me so much pain ? You like it ?

God - When do you miss me ? Whenever you have some problem. When you're happy.. you just use me in some abuses.

Myself - This shows that you're mean. God can never be mean.

God - I also want someone to love me.. like you want.. so i give you pain.

Myself - I will love you more, If you don't give me pain.

God - You won't. And you're blessed with awesome friends.  Take care.

Myself - I still have some questions left ?

God - I gave all the answeres. Nothing is left. Night Kid.

You're my desire..

You have a place in my heart
Nobody knows, not even my friends
I wanna go to every road and write your name
and take you to the every corner of the world.

your first kiss for me
and you hugged me from behind
felt so nice
i felt i am not a loner

When i see your smile
I feel this world is mine
I wont let your world turn cold
you're strong and i will stand up with you

I don't care if you sell my soul
but i want you to survive this world
frame our memories
and build us again.

I want you, when i cry alone
i want you to cry with me
when i wake up in the morning
i want you to hug me

I want a garden in front of our house
and i pluck a rose every morning and gift it to you
you teach me the way to lead my life
you show me the way and i do the same.

Its not an infatuation
its love. True love
That you'll never understand
but you're my desire.

I want to find a way.

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A new post after a month.

My last post was Lights,Books and Action.
As I wrote there..regarding my studies.. I am not studying. I flunked my pre-boards, Again!
this time.. All subjects :)

But, I don't care now.. I am used to this thing.
many random incidents with me.. People say your career is based on this thing beta, they even said this thing when I was in 10th :/

Now. I've promised myself that I will study. Not for hours. But for 2 hours a day.
My Boards are from 22nd of February.
Yes, 1 month;1 day and 22 hours left.
Still, I am on facebook and blogger.

Why ? Because it is my second home. No, Wait, It is the first one. Because the place where I stay is not a castle it is more like deep, dark dungeon.
I hate it. But I love the people.

These days I am not even talking to many people. I am ignoring them badly. My sincere apologies.
I don't even call anyone now.. But yes these days there is a special person with whom I am on call for like 2 hours =)
The only person with whom I talk non-sense[ I never talked sense ]
She is shaping my future. Inspiring me and advising me in some stuff. Which have helped me a lot :)


Something is wrong with me, I listen to 40's HINDI SONGS :|
I am not in love. But I want to fall in love.

Something crappy is on my mind.. Disturbing me.. I have been of use.
I want to give away all my books and rest in a stream.

I've even decided to give away my net for a month and my cell phone too and concentrate on my studies.

Wish me luck. I'll be out of this world. Deactivating my facebook account.
And I need some pills which make me study the whole month.

I badly need your wishes and blessing :)

Please.